There is Heaven...

Alright so check this out :
- I know an international model, and she may know Anna Tsuchiya.
- I'm about 10 years late in discovering a hot Krock band (did I mention hot ?).
- My housemates are starting to suck, majorly, in the department of cool.
- ...uhmm, I miss you very, very much, if I know you, and you don't go to Brock ._.

You've all dreamed about living with a model, but this is sorta like the real thing, and it's cool - she's like a regular sweet girl, except with one, maybe two, major exceptions that put her above-par. Namely that's the fact that she's worldy - you can't imagine the effect this has on a person unless you, yourself get out and go around the globe - and two, she might have known Anna Tsuchiya, back when she modeled (Exciting !). She's a wonderful person, and I'm introducing Nana and Hyde to her :3 Being an adolescent, christian woman, enjoying living life with two other girls, I think she -REQUIRES- a level of awareness in both of those subjects; I shall be educating her, soonly.

Put a Cherry in your pipe and Filter it ! I wish someone said that to me all about 5 years ago. Cherry Filter, a krock band formed in 1997 is probably the hottest K-thing I've precieved since Bi Rain, and in ways more stylish and sexy. I actually heard a song by them on a flash player and it rocked my socks to no end. Yeah uhmm, I'm trying to download their discography now... not going well ./sob

Just today, my dinner-date said to me: "most men are jerks", and I had the audacity to actually protest... I know ! What was I thinking !? She's right, and to make it worse, I was leaving and coming into that conclusion when we wwent for dinner. My housemaets asked me whatI was going to be doing, so I told them I was heading out witha friend, and the first words out of their mouth is "Is it a girl ?" and I, stupidly, said yes. In retrospect, maybe it wouldn't have mattered knowing these two. They started jeering about it, as if I was going to be sleeping with her that very night - I tell them she's got a boyfriend, and I know her boyfriend's cousin too, but that doesn't feter them, they're now lpayng out some fantasy that she's some sleaze who daets men behind her boyfriend's back, and I feel more disgusted, more than annoyed by the minute. * AGNST LASERBEAMS ANGST LASERBEAMS * - soory, Devil Jin moment... Anyways, 'm not liking this new trend of theirs at all, and they dare to joke that it's in my best interest. I'm going to end here, venting about it is souring my mood as well >_>

Just to end it well, I miss you guys in Toronto, and surrounding areas... Brock is nice, and all, but truthfully, I wish you were further or closer, this 'just-out-of-the-way' thing is quite saddening - I mean, we should have railroads put back in and/or the invention of the world longest Bullet train spanning across Canada, detouring routes for all major routes of travel. * sigh * Although that's far off in the future, thinking about it makes me remember that come Christmas break, I'll see you all, and we can all be lovey-dovey again (or... something <_< )

When The Sunlight Came

I've been longing for a fairy-tale for some time now...
I've been dreaming of heartache and a chance to feel human... I don't know how I manage it all, sometimes. Especially now, I don't know what to do besides this.

Why do we live mundane lives when we prefer the escape ? In every heart, there is a cry that calls, begs for a world of princes and princesses; why do we wish so badly we could live in that world instead ?

Oh what a beautiful night

Save me from shadow in my side, oh my blue moon

It's the first time to meet somebody like you

In my lifetime

You are my blue moon

Oh, you are my blue moon

And I'm shattered at some level now... knowing that what I want is only to feel... something.

I felt something once... it was a mixture of several feelings but it's incomparable to feeling like this shell. I have little or no place in this world; I'm starting to resemble an unevolved primate. I've always know that actually, it's just that I'm emptied to that level in my heart as well, now.
Dio, if I may, may I find a world in which I cold be special ? May I feel as if I'm drawn into something romantic, yet meaningful ? May I be a prince, fighting for a princess, with the sword of ideal ? May I at the very least... die for that ideal ?

"The trouble with these on-off switches, is that they get stuck in the off position." Akishi, do you remember the story I told you ? I have no pride left to stop me from saying I wished to the end of the world that someone would comfort me from the pain of not feeling pain... as humans do.

There was once a beautiful night, in my life, and she was lovely, in every way. I don't remember ever falling in love with stars as I did, that night. She was gentle, she firm, and bellied a fierce passion behind her sharp eyes. Today, cold winds whip my hair away, and cause me to tear drops so miserable, they're bitter to my taste. I've fallen from those heavens, since.

Dio,... This Prince will earnestly look for his Blue Moon Princess... please guide his hands, so that he may find her again, let him find himself again.

"A drop of water falls on me now, as if to ask me how..."

Not that I wasn't already...

Someone I admired told me that he was greatful that I was checking up to see how he was. I told him it was not a problem at all, afterall, even though I had never met him, he was a cool person and we all wanted to know that he was still alright. He said he was sorry, but due to the nature of his work (and he had a lot of that), he had to avoid contact with people. This actually has little relevance to what I'm going to be talking about... but as soon as I did somehting today, all I could picture was his words in my head, as if I was trying to think I could justify myself in that way.

I guess what I'm leading to saying is that I'm going to be in a general online-hiatus. I'll be hanging about MSN a bit more, only to get some phone numbers down - once that's done, I'll be off that as well. If ANY urgency arrises and you something of me - you can always contact me via my (junjunpei@)Gmail since I check that almost daily.

The reason as to why I'm leaving is a bit of a mystery to me as well; I'm acting on impulses and gut feelings without questioning them as of late. I think it may be rooted in the fact I feel I may be spending too much time online. Anyone with a blog or facebook knows what I'm talking about. I'm the type of person who just works on gut feelings, it gets me around wehre it's otherwise logically improbable and some might go as far as saying it's a bit of divine intervention.

And by "some", I refer to me.

Don't worry - I'll be fine. I'm in no trouble, and I will miss a few people, but I'll find a way around that.